I could not find a better title to define myself : a living soul, that i'm.
Lively at my heart I know many of them have a lilltle idea about how and who i'm, blame it to my nature,a terrible person I'm with relation. Trust has a big part in this small world of mine.I deal with heart more than my brains. But my trust just like any other is vulnerable.
'Solitary' is the word that defines me to its best; to my fear I have a very little understanding of others.Most years of my life I have spent understanding and learning myself, however to my disappointment I fail to find much of it.This pursuit of my inner self and happiness is a parrallel journey of my life.
Birthdays are just a reminder, of how you need to behave with the age. I'm 26 but I don't behave like one of my age. I still act like a teenage. I'm bad with handling emotions.I have tired figthing with the egos but it has its victory everytime.I'm just another cry baby helpless on my own.There's a lot of emotion luggage I need to leave behind with the passing years.Brooding over and holding on to my past has moulded me to a fickle person.
My life doesnot seem a very colorful. But I do have my share of happiness which I enjoy completely. Like any others I get excited on little news from family and freinds, cry over small emotional conversation. There are small wishes I ask from God everyday, peace that I get seeing bad people being punished.
And I do have small mantras that does bring glory to my life;
"Expect the Least' and be happy with your share that life has for you.
Lively at my heart I know many of them have a lilltle idea about how and who i'm, blame it to my nature,a terrible person I'm with relation. Trust has a big part in this small world of mine.I deal with heart more than my brains. But my trust just like any other is vulnerable.
'Solitary' is the word that defines me to its best; to my fear I have a very little understanding of others.Most years of my life I have spent understanding and learning myself, however to my disappointment I fail to find much of it.This pursuit of my inner self and happiness is a parrallel journey of my life.
Birthdays are just a reminder, of how you need to behave with the age. I'm 26 but I don't behave like one of my age. I still act like a teenage. I'm bad with handling emotions.I have tired figthing with the egos but it has its victory everytime.I'm just another cry baby helpless on my own.There's a lot of emotion luggage I need to leave behind with the passing years.Brooding over and holding on to my past has moulded me to a fickle person.
My life doesnot seem a very colorful. But I do have my share of happiness which I enjoy completely. Like any others I get excited on little news from family and freinds, cry over small emotional conversation. There are small wishes I ask from God everyday, peace that I get seeing bad people being punished.
And I do have small mantras that does bring glory to my life;
"Expect the Least' and be happy with your share that life has for you.
wowoo.. see! i told you u can write well too.. U have just inspired me Gongo baido... Going through Ur post has made me realize so many things about myself. Will elaborate it to u on phone someday. Do keep writing.. :)
ReplyDeletehahaha........I must thank the People who inspired me to speak my mind out. I never thought I would be writing someday :)
ReplyDeletelike how u say it...'Priority changes' and I'm not asking you to change but am sure Ur realization will make it easier for you to take the next step that u say u have been trying to take...(if u know what i mean...) :)
ReplyDeleteNw I'm not very hopeful about my recent priority change.As I said, I'm terrible with relation, be it any .
ReplyDelete:P :P you can.. you can..
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