I don't know which one I'm to be categorized as; sadist, happy go lucky person, responsible daughter, daunting and lovable sister, generous friend or kind lover. Unfortunately, I'm even not sure what i want the most in my life; Is it money, power, love or blessing??
A phase of life where its so difficult to answer many of my inquisitive- me questions.I wonder why i enjoy living in these world where every time i fail to answer my own put up question that actually matters a lot to me. I don't know why i don't hesitate living in miseries;
why every night i have to go through the hard times of letting something go off easily without causing any pain,why do i fear speaking out my thoughts(is it fear that my voice would remain unheard?),why do i curse myself for being helpless knowing there's nothing i could do,why do i wait and count each and every seconds knowing that there's no last chance left, why do i still wait for that one big day that could change everything in my life, beginning of all good.
why have i stopped looking for my inner happiness rather than depending on someone to provide it,why have i stopped trusting in ME that has always been my strength. And of all, why have i guarded myself from the exposure of living inspite of the fact that I'm gifted with so many wonderful people that i could ever think of and not to forget the time constraint life. WHY??
A phase of life where its so difficult to answer many of my inquisitive- me questions.I wonder why i enjoy living in these world where every time i fail to answer my own put up question that actually matters a lot to me. I don't know why i don't hesitate living in miseries;
why every night i have to go through the hard times of letting something go off easily without causing any pain,why do i fear speaking out my thoughts(is it fear that my voice would remain unheard?),why do i curse myself for being helpless knowing there's nothing i could do,why do i wait and count each and every seconds knowing that there's no last chance left, why do i still wait for that one big day that could change everything in my life, beginning of all good.
why have i stopped looking for my inner happiness rather than depending on someone to provide it,why have i stopped trusting in ME that has always been my strength. And of all, why have i guarded myself from the exposure of living inspite of the fact that I'm gifted with so many wonderful people that i could ever think of and not to forget the time constraint life. WHY??
The first blink of realization shows in your questions ... hope answers will come Naturally too someday.
ReplyDeleteBut seriously Why? Why? Why? :)
and dat someDay will change everything :)
ReplyDeleteYour words exactly describes the current stage of my life. Me... I'm still waiting i guess..
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