I don't know which one I'm to be categorized as; sadist, happy go lucky person, responsible daughter, daunting and lovable sister, generous friend or kind lover. Unfortunately, I'm even not sure what i want the most in my life; Is it money, power, love or blessing??
A phase of life where its so difficult to answer many of my inquisitive- me questions.I wonder why i enjoy living in these world where every time i fail to answer my own put up question that actually matters a lot to me. I don't know why i don't hesitate living in miseries;
why every night i have to go through the hard times of letting something go off easily without causing any pain,why do i fear speaking out my thoughts(is it fear that my voice would remain unheard?),why do i curse myself for being helpless knowing there's nothing i could do,why do i wait and count each and every seconds knowing that there's no last chance left, why do i still wait for that one big day that could change everything in my life, beginning of all good.
why have i stopped looking for my inner happiness rather than depending on someone to provide it,why have i stopped trusting in ME that has always been my strength. And of all, why have i guarded myself from the exposure of living inspite of the fact that I'm gifted with so many wonderful people that i could ever think of and not to forget the time constraint life. WHY??
A phase of life where its so difficult to answer many of my inquisitive- me questions.I wonder why i enjoy living in these world where every time i fail to answer my own put up question that actually matters a lot to me. I don't know why i don't hesitate living in miseries;
why every night i have to go through the hard times of letting something go off easily without causing any pain,why do i fear speaking out my thoughts(is it fear that my voice would remain unheard?),why do i curse myself for being helpless knowing there's nothing i could do,why do i wait and count each and every seconds knowing that there's no last chance left, why do i still wait for that one big day that could change everything in my life, beginning of all good.
why have i stopped looking for my inner happiness rather than depending on someone to provide it,why have i stopped trusting in ME that has always been my strength. And of all, why have i guarded myself from the exposure of living inspite of the fact that I'm gifted with so many wonderful people that i could ever think of and not to forget the time constraint life. WHY??
